Time feels like it slips by too quickly as we get older.
For some reason it seemed like life moved slower when I was a kid. It feels like the older I get, the faster it goes. Its as if its building momentum with each passing year. I don’t know how to slow this, I don’t want to blink and suddenly be 80 years old. I want to feel each passing year profoundly and intensely. I want to be the kind of adult who still has one foot firmly planted in childhood; who can still remember the joys of jumping in puddles and the awkwardness of being a teenager; who can gain the respect of the youth by really truly remembering the unique aches and pains that accompany certain ages. I hope to never inadvertently snip the cord that connects me to my childhood. I’m noticing now, more than ever, how easy to is to lose touch of this. Life bogs you down with all sorts of mundane responsibilities, its easy to drift and wind up in the boring land of a stereotypical adult.
May was a month of celebration. On May 14th, Elizabeth would have turned 30. While I find the idea of a “Birthday Month” a ridiculously narcissistic concept, I’m happy to do it for Elizabeth. It only inspires me to do more, to live life fully, and to be a better person. I still have no idea how to celebrate her birthday in a way that feels right. I decided to go on a walk to Bondi and imagined her with me. I wondered what kind of person she would have been had she still been alive today. I wonder how different life would have turned out. Maybe she would have had a baby by now… maybe I would have been an aunt.
To start off this month off right, I’m going to see the festival of Vivid with a group of my amazing friends. I remember seeing pictures of LED lights streaming across the Sydney Opera House when I lived in Ottawa. I remember those cold winter nights, laying in my bed, cozy under the covers, fantasizing about living in such a beautiful, fancy city. Now here I finally am, living the dream; drinking it all in.
Welcome to the table, June. I will make sure to enjoy every single day of you!
“Live in each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit, and resign yourself to the influence of the Earth”
– Henry David Thoreau
“There are souls that you feel to lean forward to, like a sun-filled window.”
– Federico García Lorca
“My heart swings back and forth between the need for routine and the urge to run.”
“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson