Life has been so busy and overwhelming recently. I’m struggling to juggle all the demands of being an adult. I also hate that I’ve started saying things like “I’m too busy” and I realize that it’s just because I’m not prioritizing things correctly. Which is true, I’m not. But it’s hard to prioritize when everything feels important. I want to be able to spend time with all the people I care about, attend all these cool events, make sure everyone is happy, get my alone time, read my amazing new book, write, go hiking… the list goes on. But I also have to work, pay my bills, go to the damn dentist, get groceries and do all these things that are required of me. Keeping up with everything is exhausting.
I am truly mystified by those who manage to juggle the responsibilities of parenting little kids, be a supportive a spouse, spend time with friends, have a full-time job and are fit and healthy. How? To mentally imagine what that must be like for them causes steam to come out of my ears. How do they do it?! If you have tips please do share.
But, we are not here to discuss groceries and laundry and the joys of paying rent. We are here to get excited about a new month that awaits us! What exciting things do you have coming up this month?
For me, I will kick off the first day of July (which is also Canada Day) by watching humpback whales from a tiny little boat. I can’t wait! I will also be celebrating my birthday later this month. I will be turning 29 years old; a very anticlimactic age if I don’t say so myself. Turning 29 feels like a puttering standstill, where I’m within arms reach of my thirties, yet edged out of my twenties. As Britney Spears so eloquently sung on top of a cliff, ‘I’m not a girl not yet a woman,’ indeed Brit – I feel ya. Perhaps I will spend the final year of my twenties ringing out as much ridiculousness that my status as a girl still “in her twenties” can afford. Then, by the time I crossover to the mature and wise age of 30, I will magically have it all together, become a pro juggler at life, and feel zero desire to retreat into my responsibility-fleeing days as a twenty year old (haaaa!)
Happy first of July everyone, and happy birthday Canada! ♥
“But it seems to me that ‘awe’ and ‘gratitude’ and ‘curiosity’ are the holiest of positions. Those are the words I want to anchor myself to. They feel right, and generous, and conductive. Through them flows the brightest current. Those postures that overwhelm me in discovery, in the bigness or complexity of living. How strange that I look at a deadly canyon drop off, or the endless vacuum of space, both of which would kill me without thought…and yet I love them with heartache and affection.
I keep thinking this: awe is the opposite of ego”
“We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us.”
“The key is to keep company only with people who uplift you, whose presence calls forth your best.”