But what I’ve come to realise is that these moments of darkness show me a place that so many people live day in and day out. They show me a place concealed behind masks, drenched in shame and guilt
Alas, their story may not involve tangled up dog leashes or mute mermaids saving strange men from shipwrecks…
I saw my love life like a voyage across the seas, setting sail to explore different places and ideas. I could not possibly set up permanent base on the first place I stumbled upon. I wanted my heart to be set free and experience what else was out there.
2017 has been an amazing year. I knew there would be big changes for me in 2017. I was in the last year of my Working Holiday Visa in Australia. I either had to leave the country or beg a company to keep me around. There had been many changes to visas making it harder […]
I can hear the ringing in my ears, the wind in my hair and his warm hazel eyes on me. It feels like a dream.
Romantic love has been advertised in the same way as pharmaceutical drug commercials; when an attractive couple runs in slow motion down a sun-setting beach and a male commentator with a smooth voice starts proclaiming all the ways this ‘drug’ will improve your life. Then at the very end of the commercial in a very quiet, rushed whisper he admits the side-effects may include heart failure and imminent death. But we were too distracted by this image of perfection to allow the words “heart failure and imminent death” to resonate.
I vaguely remember those elementary school days when I carefully wandered from desk to desk, dropping off a customised Valentine’s Day card to each of my classmates. Our teacher had sternly advised that we must have a card for each person, that it would be cruel to leave anyone out. This was completely fine by […]
I couldn’t help but feel anxious about this day’s inevitable arrival. The smell and chilliness in the air serving as an agonizing reminder of that cold morning on October 13th, 2013. I noticed my Dad was in his room and I could hear him on the phone. I was confused, he always got ready before […]
It’s weird that the one day the people you love the most, will be gone. Just like that. Life is so fragile. We get so caught up in the little things, when one day, it’ll be all be over. We’ll be gone. But maybe, hopefully, death is something different, something inconceivable. Something that we can’t […]
How do we heal? I have taken countless psychology courses and learned about grief and depression on multiple occasions. Yet when actually faced with the situation, none of this information helps. I can’t seem to figure out how to heal myself. Every time a thought about my sister arises it cuts me so deep I […]